Army life from a wife and mother's perspective

I am seeing another part of myself that could use some adjustment/stretching. And to be honest I don't like to be stretched unless I say I want to be stretched and this is what I am doing to be stretched. So if that sounds like "control" it is....it's one of my issues.

So Pat is scheduled to be home sometime at the end of next week, and Jonathan the following week. We have not been told any set information about Jonathan. What we are told is that he would come home and be here from 3 days to 2 weeks and then be sent to GA. The story keeps changing after that...he may come home again, maybe not, he may leave straight from GA to oversees, he may get time off again and stay in GA but that doesn't mean I could afford and 1,000 flight for last minute information.....nothing else is clear at this time. I am told the focus is the mission and training the troops for the mission. For that part I understand. I want him to be trained to the best possible pieces so that he comes home alive and telling of a great adventure he had.

But for now----I don't like it, not feeling well, kinda makes me sick, all this is connected to someone else and when they decide to tell me. My fear is that I won't be able to spend time with him before he leaves. I know plenty of people who come and go many times there, but he's my son.

The emotions are stating to flow, just getting updated information from Jonathan's unit on deploying and all that comes with that. How many times will I cry today--that will be the question?

Update

I think I started this last year and have not been really good about updates and stuff.

So here goes...Pat finishes his training and is coming home May 7th ish...Army times. So sometime that weekend he will be home and will start looking into finding work again.

Within a week Jonathan is finishing his AIT May 14th. Ok. He will be home between 3 days to 2 weeks and will ship out to GA and then onto Iraq this year. I have posted a link from the local newspaper on the unit.

http://blog.oregonlive.com/oregonatwar/oregon_national_guard/

And then we have Erik looking to study aboard next year in Astrilia--fun, fun he will be looking for work this summer to pay for the funds to go.

So lots of comings and goings this year--I am going through many emotional phases of it all--but I am a mom and that's ok!