Army life from a wife and mother's perspective

I am seeing another part of myself that could use some adjustment/stretching. And to be honest I don't like to be stretched unless I say I want to be stretched and this is what I am doing to be stretched. So if that sounds like "control" it is....it's one of my issues.

So Pat is scheduled to be home sometime at the end of next week, and Jonathan the following week. We have not been told any set information about Jonathan. What we are told is that he would come home and be here from 3 days to 2 weeks and then be sent to GA. The story keeps changing after that...he may come home again, maybe not, he may leave straight from GA to oversees, he may get time off again and stay in GA but that doesn't mean I could afford and 1,000 flight for last minute information.....nothing else is clear at this time. I am told the focus is the mission and training the troops for the mission. For that part I understand. I want him to be trained to the best possible pieces so that he comes home alive and telling of a great adventure he had.

But for now----I don't like it, not feeling well, kinda makes me sick, all this is connected to someone else and when they decide to tell me. My fear is that I won't be able to spend time with him before he leaves. I know plenty of people who come and go many times there, but he's my son.